hello.
Just like i promised this post will be longer and its subject will be mindset.
This post will be personal so, dear reader, i dont care about what You think. If You dont want to leave any helpful feedback, then stop reading right here. Dont waste Your time.
I writing and posting it here just for myself.I hope that in the future I will be able to look back and see how great way i went in fighting with my own weakness.
Gordon in his course "Tilt Free Today" has mentioned about 4 steps to " grow out from tilt".
Step 1 - Find out why You tilt
There are several reasons why i tilt:
a) lost several buy ins in short period of time;
c) win a lot in few minutes.
Step 2 -What Your tilt exactly look like:
a) when i lost severals buy ins in one session i'm usually go into whining mode. " Why those idiots hits again!", "WTF, THIS FISH PLAYS EVERY HAND !! WHY THE **** HE CRACKED MY ACES!!". sad but true.
the more buying i lost, the more upset i'm. Sometimes when i play after hard and long shift in work every unlucky loss is like a slap in the face. Its time when my mouse can hit the wall.
Now when i think why sometimes i can fall into this nerd rage, i've concluded that the reason behind all this are expectation.
I read poker books, watch strategy video and i EXPECT to win with a fish. And if i dont win ....i'm angry.
b) when i lost few buy ins to one player or someone outplays me few times, my game starts to be aggressive versus that player. I start to throw out lots of bad words to my monitor and sometimes insult my opponent on chat. I'm angry and aggressive. Trying to play as much hands as possible versus him and outplay or win with him. And if i lost another buy in to someone then i start to play very loose to every opponent at table.
c) i also started to tilt when i win a lot in one session.
in this point someone can ask "why are You tilt if You win?"
well ...it's simple. Gordon had defined tilt as "THE ACT OF KNOWINGLY PLAYING BAD ", so if i start to extend my ranges ( basically all of them:RFI -3bet-3bet call -ranges) only because i hit everything today ...i'm on tilt. My game starts to be very loose. I feel invincible.
Step 3 - Work out how to solve the problem.
For point "a" and "b" i have 3 level system.
Level 1 - when only i start to feel angry because i lost a pot i quit playing. Simple as that.
Level 2 - When only i start to feel angry because i lost a pot i will take a 30 min break. If after the break still I feel angry i will quit playing for that day.
Level 3 - I will do Gordons exercise while playing to keep calm. If it will not work, i'll follow by level 2.
When it comes to point "c" i will keep it simple. When only i notice that i play as "player with god mode on" i will make a 1 hour brake.
Step 4 - Practice , Rinse and Repeat
For the next 3 months i will practice my Level 1 from Step 3.
when only quitting when i'm angry will be normal thing for me i will move to Level 2. and try to make a break to clear my head from anger.
thanks for reading.
feedback how You deal with tilt will be appreciated.
Piotr aka CAvernare