Everyone! I think it's time to revive this thread. Often I feel like I need something as an output for my thoughts, emotions, accomplishments or occasional frustrations. Even though I have abruplty stopped posting here, I wouldn't like this to be something I started and just let it go because of lack of inspiration or whatever.
To recap my last 4-5months, it has been a very tough time. I started the month of May with a small amount on MU and with SCOOP coming it was clear to me that it could go downhill or uphill rather drastically. The former happened.
I won't go into total numbers, as I don't think that matters in any way. The point is that I bricked absolutely everything and was left feeling very bitter after that month.
June and July went on the same downhill path and frustration, doubt and all those nasty feelings set in by the end of July. Every time I had a deep run, on the last 2-3 tables I would already feel like I was going to get unlucky or make some mistake that would cost me the tournament. This was not only very counter productive but also something that was influencing my decisions, state of mind and it was always disrupting my momentum. I would say June and July have been the worst months for me since I've been part of bitB Staking.
First week of August the stable signed a new mental coach and we had our first session with him. After that session everything changed in my mind. I followed the coach's guidelines and started to take my monthly goals as gospel and live each day by them. It isn't something that comes naturall, I must say. Developing new, productive, healthy habbits is a very difficult to accomplish and it requires heart and dedication. I am not there yet, but I have definitely improved immensely over the past 5-6 weeks. Working out, eating healthy and staying positive are only a few of the things I've improved. It put things in perspective.
Good things continued in September as well. Nothing results wise yet but I am getting there. Unfortunately I still have moments when I get very frustrated, especially when there is much on the line. This is not something I think I should eliminate. It is, however, something I want to have totally under control. On this topic I made a post in our stable group chat after a mentor asked for feedback on how it was going during WCOOP season:
"For me the first week has been going well. I started every day with full confidence, prepared for every session. Had meals ready for every part of the day, worked out, went swimming. Morale is really high. I did let some things get to me along the way though, but I think it's something you can't and maybe also shouldn't avoid. Instead, let yourself react naturally but then take a moment and think about your next steps and don't let mistakes influence you in a negative way.
I have played fewer tables and shorter sessions myself and I feel great about that. No fatigue at all, time for preparation during the day etc. I am ready to continue with this mindset and very happy about it.
We are part of the best stable, with the best coaches out there. This should always be an argument that helps you out when you feel down or motivation is lost. Vamos!"
I guess I made a longer post than I intended, but I hope it makes up for all the missed time since I have posted last.
I will leave my MTD graph in here, so I can come back at the end of the month and top it with a much better one!
I will continue with the grind with a session on either Wednesday or Thursday. Today and tomorrow I am working on a side project and I will also study and redesign my HUD.
Don't shy away from giving feedback on what I post or simply just say hi.
Glad to be back! LFG
Last edited by ac3play; 09-19-2016 at 11:55 AM.