Updates after New Year !

Goals for 2016


[ ] Be rolled for NL1000 and play 1 hand there
[ ] Buy/lease a Nissan 370z Nismo


These are my 2 most important goals that I have with poker . They both have a deep meaning to me and I know with absolute certainty that I will achieve them both by the end of the year .

I will approach poker completely different this year and that has already started since Jan 1st .

I made a bet with my closest poker friend that if I don't put in 3,000 hands/day excluding days when I have to prepare for an exam I will send him half a buy-in from my current stake . Bet started on Jan 3rd .


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GL danufcs!

Don't burn out w/ the volume. Taking off days are key. Try posting a few (troubling) hands with your thought process written out, and I'll try to comment on them when I see your blog next time. Cheers =)

I will do that Kazuya ! Thanks for stopping by

what does 'rolled' for 1knl mean?

best of luck to you in 2016

QWUT: For me it means to have at least 50BIs .

Decided to look at my graph only once every 2 weeks since I get too affected emotionally when I am running bad . First time I will look and post will be on the 15th/16th .


Good luck guys !

Update for Jan 1st - Jan 20th

So I have been feeling stuck in my poker career for a very long time . I started playing at the same time that I created my 2p2 account got up to 10nl by August 1st 2014 and I have been stuck there for the last 18 months . Right now guess what stake I am playing ? Yeah you guessed it , 10nl.

What do I have to learn from this ? Well first of all it's clear that I am here not by mistake or because of variance , no . I am here because I have not learned more . Now the question is : What is it that I am supposed to learn ?

Is it discipline ? Is it strategy ? Is it mindset ? Is it all of the above ? What will take me to the next level ? These are the questions that are running through my head at the moment . Life is giving me a lesson which I have not passed for the last one a half years . It's just not clicking in my head .

No man, it's not the rake . Stop blaming the "rake-trap", it's me . It's not my BRM either . So I am down to mindset and strategy . What is my mindset like ? I think that I am very anxious in general as a person which means I am very anxious about results , especially when they are bad . I have worked on this during the time that I have been playing with some success . The thing is that I know how a good winning player feels like . I have beaten 5nl for 10bb/100 for a large sample so I know what variance feels like when I am a good winning player . The fact is that I am not one at 10nl . 10nl is not done with me, I need to learn something very well before I am allowed to pass .

I think the thing that I need to understand is that people who are stuck at 10nl ARE NOT STUPID . I am not stupid and I am still stuck here . I have to be honest and say that I do have that mentality ( starting to see a trend here ) ; the mentality that : "they are stupeeeed I can just print money from them" . Apparently not . I can't print money and they are not stupid , they are in fact just as good/smart as I am in poker . Just as good as I am , let that sink in for a minute ...

What does that mean ? It means that while I am playing at this lovely stake I am not playing against the guys at 5nl which are below me , no . I am playing against me ! So I need to beat myself ! WOW ! I am having this revelation as I am writing this . I have found that for me what works best is to express what I am feeling inside with words, it helps me create explicit knowledge . I am not so good with tacit knowledge to be fair , I am a rational guy .

So back to what I was saying before . They play the same game that I do at 10nl , I am playing against myself (more or less) . What does this mean ?... It means that whatever decision I have to make in every hand, I have to put myself in their shoes because they are me and I need to beat me in order to level up .

I need to finish college, lol that was a jump. Not for the diploma, not for my parents, not because I want to be involved with what my university degree will say that I am prepared to do . I have to do it for me, as a training . I didn't feel like I needed to finish medschool but I just jumped back in the university game very fast, that means that I have to finish this in order to evolve to the next level of myself . My current struggle with university is that I have the ****tiest colleagues and professors which, LOL, was the same thing that happened at medschool . I need to finish university in order for me to deal with annoying, ****ty people or else I will continue to bump into these characters for the rest of my life or until I learn how to deal with them .

So I have gotten two HUGE revelations while writing this . Firstly that I NEED to finish college in order to learn how to deal with that type of people . Secondly I have to think as though I am playing against myself when I am playing my current stake, each and every decisions I have to put myself in that guy's shoes . WOW !





I will put here the graph for this month . I have to add that I am currently in a staking deal with a friend who is also coaching me . I just realized now that a coach can only teach you whatever you are ready to learn . The graph includes a shot at 25nl where I lost 7 BIs.

Good post, man. So true about most poker players being smart and often your trying to beat players at the same level as yourself. I often over estimate my edge in games because I see some player do something terrible. But I know I make pretty terrible plays and spew every so often also, but when I compare myself I am comparing my A game to everyone else's C game - not a fair comparison. Even vs casual thinking players they probably play very short 20 to 30 minute sessions so any edge we have in skill they can try to make up for in concentration and less spew especially if we are playing long sessions. Gotta apply small edges consistently and not tilt/spew when we are beat. Really need to respect our opponents in general.

Anyway Gl. Sounds like you've got your mind in a better place now. Let's crush.

IMO

You are overcomplicating something quite simple

You are not understanding what is effectively your biggest and most serious mistake ,failing to understand that (to me its clear ) results in repeting it ad eternity.

Many players do that , 95% fail.

Its just plain hilarious to see , yeah go ahead , you can do it
you will crush!

STOP

You cant do it admit it and THINK what options you have to learn and improve


GL

Update for January


Hey guys ! The month is over is now so I will make a short update. I ended up losing a little , especially from a 7BI shot at 25nl . Overall I have made some progress but not so much as in December .

My exams will be finished on Feb 12th so until then I will only put in tiny amounts of volume. After that I will go full beast mode aiming to put in about 30hrs of play/week and some other study time .

My coach and I will start to work much more after that date as well . I got almost 100 hours in this month which I am very happy about




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Finished with my exams yesterday. I forgot to make a backup of my database and lost everything between Sep 9th till like a week ago.

Already started working . Here are my results lately :




Lost a buy in at 25nl and won almost one at 10nl . Gonna get back on the horse in the next couple of days .

Starting with today I will update the blog every day until March 15th . I will do it either at the end of the day or the next morning.

I will play 5 hours per day on average and study for 30mins - 1 hour/day .



Good luck peeps !

Played 4,5 hours studied more than 4 .

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Waddup !? Played for 5+ hours and studied around 5 . Also I am shot taking 25nl ! YEAH !


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don't know if you mentioned this already but what site are you playing on ? are these speed/zoom/rush or reg tables?

gl

@QWUT? I am playing on FTP (probably not the best decision) on reg tables . Thanks man !

So back to the daily update now . Had a good day yesterday, played for 5 hours and studied I think around 4-5 . Also I broke my best day evahhh . Tbh I was probably only 1-5% happier than I would've been at the end of any other day , win or lose . Mindset baby !


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Good luck ma people !

Day is DONE !

Played the 2 biggest pots of my life today. 1st 80$ I won, the 2nd 104$ I lost it . The one I lost tilted me bad bad bad, I made a HUGE mistake ! Played for 5.5 hours and studied about 3.



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Looking good. Keep it up!

@1857Dan Thanks mate !


Sorry for the delay . I had to pack quickly as I left for my hometown yesterday morning . After I got here I realized that I had forgotten my laptop charger (**** me) so I will not be able to play until Sunday evening . I will try to buy another charger though , hopeflly I can find one .


Hit stop loss fairly quickly but I played very well


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With uni starting and dragging my ass to go I forgot to update so here it is. Played only a little hopefully I will adapt ASAP to the new schedule and get back to my normal volume . Made some stupid mistakes as well. Why is it so ****in' hard to get back on the horse ? Oh well ...


Graph Sunday till Tuesday :

Day finished ! I am thinking of some better rules for me regarding playing that would make poker related stress more easily manageable . I was thinking about have 3 way system for determining when I should stop playing everyday . It would go like this :


- WIN 3BIs -> stop
- Lose 2BIs -> stop
- HIT 1,500 hands -> stop

Anyone has a counter-argument for this ? Any opinions are welcomed !



To the graph :

Day is UP ! Decided to stick to the rules I laid down above for now . Played very well today , still made some mistakes though


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Short session yesterday , played well


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Update for Feb 27th


The day started meh with a lot of coolers and weird spots vs recreationals . I felt that it was going to be a battle day and in the end I was victorious . I didn't hit my volume goal but I decided to stop since it was late and losing some would far outweigh winning some more .


Day : +39,6$



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Good luck guys !