'' Its hard to be humble, when you are as great as I am''
Many people mention I am arrogant because the way I talk on the tables is bombastic. I am not arrogant, I am just the best 6 max hyper turbo reg. Why you would ask. Because even though I havent run above or close to ev the last five years I am still here. Even though I am running 160 000$ under ev the last 2 years I have a very good life and I am self-made
Even though 2016 was a completely failure I feel great about myself. It was full of bad decisions but I learned many things from my mistakes
Bad decision number 1:
I partied way too much. There was a point in my life that I was drinking every single day. Getting wasted drinking. All I cared about was drinking and fooking. Damn this jagermeister redbull is delicious
My weight skyrocketed from 85kg to 101kg. Until the moment I relapsed I had a healthier lifestyle, I was hitting the gym 3-4x and I was drinking 1-2x per week
Lesson learnt:
Even though I am successful with my life, life didnt stop. I am in the most productive age and I should focus in the grinding aspect and not in the partying aspect. Partying should be a reward of my grinding ethic especially when I havent achieved my goals
Bad decision number 2:
I decided to live in Thailand. That was an emotional decision as I havent met the guys living there for two years. I was missing their company and I thought everything would be the same. I knew they were in serious relationships but I didnt think it will affect their decisions. I was wrong. Most people never went out alone and the only time one did he abandoned me when his girlfriend went crazy. I was like what the fook dude. Dont you have some self respect? Dont you have your own will? Last but not least I like grinding in the morning-afternoon time. I cant grind at night. Night is to have fun. Unfortunately my games ran only during night time when I was in Thailand
Lesson learnt:
Always follow my upper head not my bottom one. Never think that people will have the same high standards as you, everyone has their own life standards and they may be happy even if they have very low ones
Bad decision number 3:
In the start of the year I fought with my old backer and left his group. I was frustrated because I thought he didnt act as he should and I took a plomo o plata approach. He is such a great guy that he advised me to be more conciliatory and not taking extreme approaches but I didnt listen. I regret the decision to leave the group and stop working with him because I think he is a real diamond in this world. In the end he improved me both as a poker player and a person
Lesson learnt:
Bad decision number 4:
I wasnt taking care of myself. I let poker affect my life too much. I am like a robot. I never let anyone or anything affect how to live my life. This year poker affected my mood too much. I was more aggressive in my personal life, I was verbally abusing everyone (suprisingly is something I never do, I am sarcastic but I am not offensive) and as I wrote instead of grinding more I stopped playing and only partied
Lesson learnt:
The only way to beat downswing is by grinding, I need to focus on decisions and not results. Feeling healthy is the MOST important aspect during the downswing. I observed that my mood changed slower when I started working out and eating healthy again. I am still running 160 000$ under ev but I cant control that
This blog will be a diary. No set goals or any crap like this. Its not a new year new me bullsht. I am quite happy with how I am and I will try to perfect several aspects of myself. I am not going to write anything about the past girls/lifestyle/mistakes but I will look ahead. Well I will occasionally nag about how I am getting scammed from pokerstars the last 5 years, focussing on the last 2 years
I do have goals but
What will you find here?
-How I spent my life travelling / playing poker / other adventures
-Interesting articles or books I read
-Funny facts happening in my life
-Funny videos
-My working out progression
I am currently hitting the gym regularly. I managed to drop from 101kg to 89.4kg following proper nutrition the last 117 days. I am sober the last 117 days aswell. I have before and after photos but I will post when I reach my goal. Unfortunately I started tracking lifting weights last week
I am working with a guy who is in a great shape as you can see
Now in his bulking phase
We started slowly but I am on a decent pace now. I am quite pleased with the results but far away from my goal. My main issue that I couldnt eat as much as 1800 calories as I was never a food guy. I can drink like hell but I am eating like a turtle. It took me a while to make a habit of eating the right amount of food and then took me a little longer to eat the right ration of macros
There is a big chance I am going to live in a country for 1-2 years because I am tired of travelling. I am between Malta or South America. I would prefer to live in a pokerhouse as I am very social person and I enjoy hanging out and learning new people. I wouldnt mind to live alone if the poker community is huge either. Any suggestions are welcomed
-I prefer outgoing people who like nightlife
-I like very big houses with swimming pools and/or very close to beach
-I like to have big room that fits my grind station and charts
-Easy access to gym
-I wouldnt like to renew my visa every month so I prefer something like no visa or visa every 5-6 months
-Easy access to lady spots
-Many ladies
-Ladies
I am not going to reveal my poker/fitness/mental goals but I will show you how I am reaching there
End of the year for me, if the games will not run next year i will post ev graphs to observe scamstars at their finest, hopefully that will not be the case
can u tell me something about living expenses in Thailand ? I mean, apartment ( like 1 bedroom 1 living room 1 bath, 1 kitchen etc ) , food per month , going out ( going full degen per 1 night cost ) ?
I am not the best person to tell you that. I was paying 800$-1000$ for a very nice appartment in the city near Loi Kroh including gym and pool. I spent 200-300$ minimum every time i went out
We are what we repeadly do. Excellence its not an act but a habit
Unfortunately I had a very bad start this year, I am getting destroyed on 1ks while even mincashing is a reason to celebrate. Not a surprise as many highstakes semi regs are running insanely hot against me. I took the decision to play lower stakes (100-500$) for a while as I get very few games per hour on the specific stake and running good/bad there affects the overall winrate significantly. I do miss the old days where 1 000$ were popping faster
On the positive side I managed to stay near the same kg during new year's celebration while I increased
the amount of weightlifting. I am still far away from my goal but Rome wasnt built in a day. I can lift higher numbers but tiredness could affect the quality of my grinding
I read https://www.amazon.com/How-Find-Blac.../dp/1843440679 . This book is about people who are interested in sports betting and how to find if a tipster is good or bad. It is a must read if someone is seriously interested in sports betting as a side investment. The author describes how to do it, he provides over 200 tipster sample in which near everyone failed. The most important aspect is that 20% roi isnt attainable and the very best can reach a bit over 10% if so and they are extremely rare species
Many people will be happy when they see the start of my year and my late run. It is very cruel and monotonous to grind through this downswing, not only I dropped 120k green but a substancial amount of ev aswell
with average buy in 428$ we are looking at 282bi downswing
On the very positive side I hired the personal trainer of my friend who helped me to get into a more healthy lifestyle. He has deep knowledge about lifting weights and eating properly. His instagram is
We added more calories to my nutrition. I used to eat 1800 cal because I couldnt eat more but now I am eating 2000 calories. We are planning to add 200 more if I keep losing weight
Today is day 1 of hitting the gym with my new training program. We divided my routine in 3 days which I will do twice per week. Day 1 consists of pushing exercises, day 2 of pulling and day 3 of legs
We have a specific body type as my final goal and I will try my best to reach it. Unfortunately I lost my before photos but I will definitely post the end result when I get there
Thats not my goal though. I like more athletic body types than bulky
I am really busy with some real life stuff so I will take a break from hypers for 1-2 weeks, when I will return I will start loading 1ks again as my plan is to grind during the night more often
Currently reading the seven habits of highly effective people which seems interesting. I am still in the beginning of the book but it looks promising
1) Be proactive
2) Begin with the End in mind
3) Put first things first
4) Think win/win
5) Seek to understand then to be understood
6) Synergize
7) Sharpen the saw
Be proactive. My games are not running until 1800-1900pm so I decided to join smart spin team. I was very sceptical in the beginning as I have a volume goal in hyper format that I must reach and how beneficial would be if i would join them
I explained them I can play only a fixed amount of hours per day which is 1-3 hours during the morning. I was clear that I will not sacrifice studying or grinding hours from my main format and they were fine with it. I want to focus hard on poker this year and I think it would be good to grind in the morning after I wake up and before I hit the gym. They said I have to start from 7$ which was a bit offensive but I agreed. My graph so far
Someone will think that I am madman because I chose to learn another high variance format. Truth to be said I was thinking to learn mtts so I can print the easy money. My competitive nature didnt let me. I like constant action, I like nagging my opponents and mtts are too boring and too easy. I need challenges
I watched ''Live by night'' this week. I think it is a great movie with some extremely entertaining characters. I think imdb's rate at 6.7 is a bit unfair. I dont like Ben Affleck as an actor but I really enjoyed his movie
Elliot Roe and Jonathan Little did a twitch webinar on goal setting. It was a very interesting webinar to watch. They claimed it is better if you ''make a promise'' regarding your goals. Elliot mentioned and I agree, people who have a propbet or a freeroll is more likely to reach their destination
A very good concept regarding long term goals is to break them down in smaller steps. This is a concept from Napoleon Hill's book ''Think and grow rich'' Setting a specific deadline, helps to stay on the right track and have a deeper understanding if something isnt going the right way
They suggest a technique for goal setting named ''SMART'' from Peter Druker
Hypers: 50$ in the first four people who will choose this freeroll
Spins: 50$ in the first four people who will choose this freeroll
Gym: 50$ in the first two people who will choose this freeroll
Rules:
Freerolls are going to start on 10th February and finish on 15th April 2017. Previous games dont count. Graphs will be posted from hm2 or pt4, I may post ss, most likely I wont. I will post the photos of my body in the end of freeroll period and we will compare the end result. I may post photos during the gym freeroll, most likely I will. I am doing this for my personal gain, nonbelievers or people who will try to create issues by asking more proofs should save their time and dont claim a freeroll
what a stupid bf% picture"-line". 13-15% is more jacked than the 11-12% guy, he is relaxed and in a bad lightning vs lightning and awkward position/flexing and still much veiner arms and definitions all over.