Intro

I am a 21 years old mechanical engineer student from greece that started playing in the beginning of this year and I am writiing this thread from a very low point of my life. My social life is nonexistent ,I used to be more social but still an introvert but I could hook up with girls occasionally.By the day I am getting more lonely depressed and fatter . Also I still live with my parents and I need to move out asap but I dont have money and I dont want to work a slavery job with minimum wage (thats about 700 $ in Greece). So I started poker with the hope that I would supplement my income with atleast minimum wage by playing an exciting game . My biggest aspiration is to have the freedom [B]to do whatever the **** I want[/B ]and I thought that poker could give me that freedom at least partially . My approach to poker the last 4 months was very wrong . I had played massive volume for a beginner (100k hands per month with minimum studying the results are dissapointing for the amount of time that I dedicated to this game that I can only beat nl2zoom for about 5bb/100 and breakeven on nl5zoom . That had a huge toll on my mental health and made me think I wasted the last 4 months.

However from today on I will turn my life around and try not to be a ****ing loser in everything and start to live my life in beastmode.

About this thread

- I will update this thread every week on sunday with new poker goals and life goals for the week.

- I will update every week with a graph.

- I will post when something exciting happens pokerwise or lifewise.

- **WARNING** Probably there will be a lot depressive monlogues because I am a depressive mother****er.

Long-Mid term goals

~ Beat nl10 zoom by the end of summer

~ Get shredded as fuark sub 7% bodyfat and try to mantain single digits all year around

~ Slay some girlzz and become a charismatic mother****er

~ Make atleast 1 trip abroad before the end of the year

~ Become a Discipline God


Lets **** them alllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Subbed simply for Rock
Love that quote too. First time I've seen it but it's so true.
glgl

yeah very inspiring quote for a person with procrastination issues.

So my last week was very rough for me mentally and I slept on average 3-4 hours per day. I spiraled in deep procrastination/depression mode.I made a decision I am going to transition to mtts because its more fun and the field is softer atleast in micros.


Weekly challenges

~50 mtts

~study poker 7 hours

~5 days cardio

~ finish atleast 1/3 arduino project / finish machine elements project(college stuff)

~ no fap

ok I havent updated this post because this week was very life changing and brutal .I found a job in a shipping agency for a trial period of 3 months. Things going badly because i get very anxious at work I hope I get used to the enviroment and find time to play poker.

Ok my life settled a bit still anxious at work maybe because of my social anxiety.However thinks getting better and I am adjusting to the enviroment.The payckeck is minimum so I have extra motivation to get better at poker.I transitioned again to cash games because I dont have time after work.Still no girlfriend though.

Here is my graph since the beginning of the challenge volume is low.