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Originally Posted by DougL
Jesse,
wtb
Thanks for the blog, I've enjoyed it.
You're in your second week in a planned 6. It looks like you're doing OK for $. How has the being your job changed how you look at playing? Your blog sounds upbeat; are you having some days where you say, "OMG, I have to go hang out with the degenerate losers, again?"
Also, your blog sounds like you're having some emotional highs and lows along the way. Do ou think you're close to the point where dropping 4 racks or making four racks will take a back seat to some internal metric about "I made zero mistakes, today?" It having some emotional skin in the game a requirement for enjoying it, versus being some mid-stakes poker zombie?
Do you have any thoughts about extending or curtailing your trial period at this point, or are you going to wait the full six weeks before making future plans?
Continued good luck,
Doug
I've basically broke even this week, turning a small profit of about 400 bucks. Now honestly my life only costs about 600 dollars a week, so that's not really close to problem.
In general I've still been upbeat, although the past 3 days have been a bit of a drag. Garden City is doing flooring work and is therefore a Giant cluster, so I've had to play at Bay 101 every day. Variety is important, and I think Bay 101 is starting to wear on me.
I've also taken shots at 40/80 the past 2 days and lost 1900 dollars in about 4 hours of play. That was crappy....were it not for that shot, or even if those hands had happened at 20/40, I'd be in much better shape.
Making mistakes tilts me more than losing hands actually. I'm very close to the point where I can take a bet completely in stride, so long as I'm confident I played the hand perfectly. Unfortunately I still make lots of mistakes and therefore I often end up emotionally out of whack because of them.
I'm still planning to play out the full 6 weeks, although I have a pair of 5 day vacations I plan to take during the next month (I'll be in Reno the next 5 days, playing a lot of poker, and I'm also going water skiiing later this month). At this point, it's pretty hard to believe I'll be looking for a job at the end of this.
I think you have to have fun in the game. You cannot just sit there and watch every hand silently and, as you say, be a zombie. You've got to chat up the dealer, the tables, and get involved emotionally at least a little bit. If you don't it'll just turn into a job and you'll never enjoy it.