that sounds fun

oh. my. god.

Just found out a couple of minutes ago my best friend has stage two pancreatic cancer. I have been friends with him since i have been in junior kindergarten. We have been in the same school since then. We are both in the same college (His dorm is right next to mine). We are mma sparring partners, we free solo climb and boulder together every week, we surf together, we play poker together, we drink and party together, we snowboard together, and we just love life together.

He has been pretty sick since the beginning of our freshman year. After first semester he had to drop out of two classes because of many absences. I told him he needs to tell his parents and get checked out. He is a tough mother ****er and did not heed my advice. I honestly think if he did he would be on his way to cancer free right now. Anyways, over Xmas break I talked to him parents and told them. I have never seen my friend so betrayed. He didn't talk to me for a couple of months. He finally called me just now telling me this. Luckily I leave for home in an hour and a half for break.

Idk what to do... The last time I actually cried was when I was 9 years old when my grandma died. I haven't stopped for the past 15 minutes.

I am not looking for pity or attention I just want to know what I should do. My friend's mom has been updating me about his health since he hasn't been talking to me. She has been sending me pictures and I can tell how much worse he has been getting. His eyes are really sunk in his face. We are both pretty tan since we are out in the sun everyday... He is completely white, like he has never been in the sun. Idk how I can visit him today without breaking down in front of him. I know I need to be strong, but idk how I can do it.

Aren't your 20's supposed to be fun? My Dad's uncle who raised him after his dad passed, basically my grandpa, died last year while I was at a military school. I didn't know that he passed until I went home for break... He died when I graduated from the plebe system. My mom's dad just passed in October. I have no more relatives other then my dad's brother and my mom's sister and her husband and children. My brother got out of rehab for heroin abuse a couple of months ago... no relapse yet (He can't or I will literally kill his dealer and friends who support his habbit.) Now my friend. I really wish I had alcohol right now.

If I wasn't a strong Christian I think I would consider something drastic. I am one though so no need to worry.

Sorry for being so depressing. I just need some human interaction, but my school is empty since everybody left on thurs or fri for break. Had to stay longer for stupid ****ing Army bull****. If I wasn't contracted I would quit in a ****ing heart beat.

Sorry to hear about your friend, Shell.

You should definitely go see him. And don't worry about being upset in front of him. Being honest about your emotions is healthy. The point is to be there and to let your best friend know that you care for him now as much as you always have.

The visit should not be about justifying your actions in the past. He may resent you making that call, but there's no sense in trying to defend it. Explain that you did it because you were worried, and sometimes you do things for people that you love that they might not always agree with. It's ok that he may be still upset at you. But it's more important that *you* get past it and be with him now, anyway.

Hope this helps

Or just have sex with his sister. That'll learn him


J/k

What I did would never destroy almost 15 years of friendship. He told me on the phone he knew what I did was necessary and he thanked me. He sounded really scared and his voice was very shaky. I have never heard him scared before. We have free soloed climb a 300 foot rock face. I was nervous, he was pumped. He has always been my motivator.

you will get really good service next time though

lawl

bump

Neutral bump

what say you old man?

chores on the weekend is just the worst.

I should have called into work today

i iz bored

Hey daz.
Chores blow...confirmed.

Danger, you gonna root for the astros this year?

Nah it wasn't too bad, I was up early today so if I didn't have stuff to do I would have been really bored by now.. Hi Danger

Actually, I am bored. I'm to exercise.

til the day i stop following baseball

hullo

getting a pretty good rainfall this morning

the one with those 2 19yo's

The best shots of the earth ever taken.

check out this video one of my parent's friends posted on my wall