Originally Posted by xibalba001
YES. i am living the life i am "supposed" to want, by society and my family. this would not be viewed fondly by people i feel i have a duty not to disappoint.
A few posts ago someone told you to "grow up". Based on the above quoted, however, one could make the argument that "going for it" would be a form of growing up in its own right.
You've played the game and now it's time to do what you
feel like doing. As long as you don't owe them financially, you are under no moral obligation to stay in a miserable situation simply to please your parents. Trying something different could be your unique way of "leaving the nest".
In the event you decide to go for it, you should seriously consider seeking a competent therapist that can advise you while adjusting to the new life. The feelings of guilt and irresponsibility will certainly weigh on your mind, and that is no good for poker. In fact, said feelings could subconsciously lead you to make counter-productive decisions, essentially creating a state of mental failure that ultimately routes you back to living the life that you are 'supposed' to live.
You are clearly a bright and successful individual; you don't need anyone's permission on whether or not YOU should do what YOU want with YOUR life. Rather, you should be seeking council on how to do it the right
way. And other career opportunities will still be available in the event you get sick of the scene, wanna start a family, or whatever.
In terms of going about this in the most efficient manner, have you ever considered getting started by propping in one of the California card rooms? You'll still be punching a clock in a sense, but a guaranteed income while sharpening your skills has a lot to be said for it. And with your roll you could play at stakes where they would likely offer you more flexibility wrt to hours. It would also be a great way to learn games other than hold 'em.
Also, are you totally hung up on being in Vegas? Why not see the world while you are at it? Playing the Aviation Club in Paris, check out Macau, blah, blah, blah. (You've likely factored that in, but I thought I'd mention it since so many people see Vegas as the be-all and end-all of gambling.)
Again, I want to drive home what I intended to be the main point of this rambling; Your sole focus should be learning to feel comfortable doing whatever you want with your life.
You answer to YOU- not your family, friends, society, or this forum. You've busted your ass to get ahead financially and you should enjoy the fruits of your labor on something other than just buying a goddamn house.
Given your success in school and the business world, and your apparent financial ability to withstand any downswings, being a winner at poker should be a simple matter of studying, paying attention, and making correct choices. (Assuming you don't any degen tendencies). So go live a little and worry about falling back in line with the rest of the pack later.