OP, if Vegas doesn't work, do you have a plan for afterward?

IfI busthen t my plan is to find a good rehab center that knows how to deal with people with mental illnesssess. I would actually like to wokrerk again as I am far too young to retiawfrwre. I already busted out of the deriopaepstack no where close to the money. It is hard to see straight right now because I took a totem pole and 3 shots all at oncwhice wqhuwejfnin a few seocnsd. which awfjkmn a bad adea. I really do want to be a productive member of society. I aeirhnwas for more than a decade and I know I am talasfsented enough to get another job. The problem is keeping my bipolar in check. Thus far I have epicalasdfly failed at that. Tfdahis vacation is simply to make me feel alive and that I can make it on the feltatioj paol thias faer I am not doasjhfniouj a good job.

"If I bust then my plan is to find a good rehab center"

I can't help but laugh at that line, as sad as OP's situation is. Good luck man.

LMAO at that post. I drink occasionally, used weed a few times, but just once I want to get to where he was when he wrote that post.

I would suggest replacing the benzos with thc concentrates? Maybe you're not a weed guy - if so I would give weed another chance. well not weed per se but HASH. lots of HASH VAPOR.

if you substituted dabs for the benzos in the above quote you'd probably get the same level of buzz for less damage to the wallet and the body. especially if you don't partake of thc, i guarantee a dab or two to the dome will give you something u can feel. (adults only of course)

If you're in Vegas post some pictures, your story seems weird to me.

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I call bullsh$$t on this whole thread

I agree but it is tough to declare against somebody claiming these kinds of statements because if it is true they need help.

The message with the misspelling is very fishy indeed though.

He has the ability to spell out "Productive member of society" perfectly. The sentence later he is unable to spell "This" and instead gives us "tfdahis"

Gotta agree with that.

I hope...

Plenty of people in Vegas that could easily verify with a quick meet up. Would do it myself, but I already left Vegas.

Why care, this thread is insanely entertaining, and the character OP's sketched out an almost perfect fit for this forum, lol!

Kudos to OP if it's made up, and if not he's surely old, educated and experienced enough to secure whatever help he might need - should he decide that this is what he wants.

In the meantime, the engrossingly absurd 'confessions', the addict logic, and the titilation of not knowing if it's fiction, reality, or something completely different will keep me coming back for more

He sounds like a fisherman who cant catch a cold...... Head case if anything. Smoke some Wax dude or some green and chill out with the bs.

Just got me some more crumble. That stuff is amazing. +1 on the dabs, shatters, waxes and crumbles.

knowledge is power

One of you locals should offer to meet this dude to confirm

Who the hell decided that a drink with booze in it was going to be called a cocktail? I could think of a hundred better words for an alcoholic drink other than cocktail. stupid

And what about a shrimp cocktail? No booze in that.

Molotov cocktail? No sense whatsoever.

Okay so yea I am the first to admit this trip probably wasn't a very good idea. It is too late now though I am here. So I had a benzo blackout which means I have no clue what the heck I did since last night up until this evening. I came to playing roulette on fremont st and when I finally knew WTF was going on I had no clue how I got there. What I do know is I lost about $600 all together according to my bank records I went to the ATM twice. I pulled another Marilyn Monroe and probably took enough benzos and alcohol that could be lethal to people with no tolerance. Last thing I remember was taking two totem poles and ordering some drinks.
I wish I had a video recorder or something so I could see WTF I do when I blackout. Tonight I am going to play at MGM. I will tell you what you meet some real characters out here. Just a bit earlier a guy was holding up a sign that says won't lie need weed and booze. I gave him $20 and bought him a pint of gin for his honesty. I see a lot of Nicholas cage comparisons and maybe that is correct. I mean I can't live this way forever but I don't want this to be a trip where my purpose is to die. I can't just quit the benzos or the alcohol cold turkey the withdrawls can be deadly. What I really need to do is go back to UNI(the psych ward where I live) and detox and go to a dual diagnosis rehab. The problem is that I am actually enjoying myself despite the blackouts and I am not ready to quit yet.
They always say it is pointless to go to rehab until you are completely ready. My psychiatrist has desperately been trying to get a hold of me. My parents are looking for me too. They want me thrown back in the psych ward. The thing is I HATE being Bipolar and using benzos and alcohol helps me feel oblivion for a while. Turn back the clock about 10 years and my Bipolar was much more under control. I had no suicide attempts, was a great student, and was being recruited by a lot of accounting firms as I had just graduated. My Bipolar has psychotic features and I get really out of it sometimes. The sad thing is that it gets worse the older I get. A big part of that is that I straight up stop taking my meds. I mean honestly if this were the days before deinstitutionalization I would have already been committed. I don't know what to do with myself I really just want to work but I get these intense urges to commit suicide. I am just glad I haven't had any children. A Bipolar household is no household to grow up in and I would be a horrible father. I refuse to take my antipsychotic medication because it makes you gain weight and men have been known to grow tits while taking them. I don't want any tits. Anyone playing MGM tonight?

How long will your money last if you keep spending $600 a day? Everybody has there leaks and when you're sitting on a wad of cash it's real easy to say it's just $300 but thats $90k a year $600 a day is $180k a year can you do that for 20 years? Anyhow, Bipolar is amazingly complicated you should take that money and find the best doc you can detox and work on it.

bump

I enjoyed reading this while it lasted. I always make the mistake of thinking there will be some satisfying conclusion to a thread, but it almost never works that way. Instead it just fades away.

I'm worried about OP. They had a jumper on the roof of Binions Friday the 3rd about 3 PM. Pretty sure they talked him down, but didn't leave the table to check.

Well this has not been a good trip thus far. Lost a lot of money. Any women here want to goto Boyz II men at the Mirage this next week? I think it would be a good diversion for me. I am pretty sure I have already taken like 5 years off of my life at the least. The poker has not gone well at all. I play horrible under the influence and am pretty much still under the influence. I play well buzzed but not effed up which quite honestly I have consistently been effed up on Xanax or booze or a combo of both the last few days. I should leave but I don't know where to go or what to do. I am truly a person with no direction. I plan on watching fireworks on youtube.