Flipping Coins
Heads or tails. It’s a simple concept; universally accepted as the method for solving miniscule disputes. Growing up it determined first pick in gym class dodge ball, who got shotgun, and which guys got dibs on which girls. This weekend, however, the simple flipping of a coin would determine way more than a high school crush or a school yard game.
Back track to Friday morning. I wake up and check my phone to see 6 missed calls from my buddy Cap. Normally I’d be concerned that something was wrong. But Cap’s the kind of guy who will call the 4th, 5th, and 6th time expecting a different result from the first 3. At the poker table, we call his kind a fish. Apparently, the night before, I said I would make the trip to IU with him for the weekend. Thing is I don’t want to go to IU. I want to gamble damn it. Cap doesn’t understand, citing that I “gave him my word”. “Cap if I lived up to every empty promise I made when I was drunk, I would be broke and dating quite a few unfortunate looking females.”
He keeps bitching and finally challenges me to rock, paper, scissors for the final decision. “No.” Cap’s too experienced at RPS, definitely –EV for me. “Let’s flip a coin.” He reluctantly agrees. He’s got heads, I’ve got tails. No catching and flipping, simply the way it falls on to the floor. He flips and the quarter changes sides a few times before reaching its final resting spot. Tails does not fail. I’m going to the boat.
I arrive early to see the PLO game running short handed. The lineup’s got Batman, 3 other okay regulars and one new guy we will refer to as “Self-made.” Self made is a biker looking guy, who proves to be just as reckless and aggressive with his poker as he is with his body art. Covered in tattoos, the most recognizable being the S-E-L-F M-A-D-E staring at me from across the table on the knuckles of his fingers. Anyways he’s raising about 75% of his hands from any position at the table, and in for quite a bit.
Not really wanting to risk 1K in this game versus that type of player I only buy in for 500. After building my stack up to about 650 it’s not long before me and Self Made get into a pot. He straddles to 10 and I raise UTG to 40 with A
A
8
6
. Folds to him and he re-Pots it. I shove and he calls without much hesitation. He’s got 5678 rainbow. Flop brings J103. The turn is a 4. And of course the river is a deuce. All black. On to my next 500. We get it in again pre flop. My KKQJ against his 88T5. I lose again, this time to a boat. I can’t help but think of what ugly tattoo my money will be funding.
I turn my music up loud and vow to “relax” before I enter another big pot. I Start chipping up, playing smart poker. The table begins to fill up, resulting in SM’s strategy becoming more vulnerable. He’s bleeding my chips away, when he gets in a big pot with Batman. They get it all in on a draw heavy flop and Batman’s top 2 holds up in the 2k pot. SM shakes his head and leaves for the day. God damnit Batman.
Like a bunch of little girls we gossip for a few minutes after he leaves. Apparently he’s a “self made” business man from Arizona, here for the WPT. The WPT doesn’t start for 3 weeks, and for those of you who’ve never been to Lawrenceburg Indiana, the surrounding 30 miles doesn’t have much outside of discount liquor stores and broke down strip clubs.
For the next few hours I play good solid, well-positioned, aggressive poker as my stack slowly rises. After free rolling a short stack’s flopped straight with my straight and a flush draw I’m back up to 1500. With the table completely full I pick up AAKT in the BB. The whole table calls to me. I check, fearing a big pot out of position. Flop comes A
J
3
and everyone checks to the BTN who bets 40. Gets back to me and I make it 160. He announces raise immediately when it reaches him as he sits and thinks about the amount. He decides on “pot” and I’ve got a decision. With the current nuts, I can’t do anything but shove. He calls and we’ve officially built a 3k pot. I wait for him to turn his hand over, praying to see JJ. I’m dead wrong. K
5
Q
T
. Before the dealer can flip over the turn I ask the guy if he wants to run it a few times. The dealer interrupts me, letting me know that’s not allowed.
It’s right then that it hits me. I’ve gotten into the situation that I vowed I would avoid. Not just today, not just in poker, but in every facet of my life. I’d often gotten defensive when friends would introduce me as “a gambler”. The term gambler implies recklessness. I’m not a gambler, I’m a risk-taker. A calculated risk-taker. But right now, at this moment, I’m everything I claimed I wasn’t. I’ve voluntarily put 1500 of my own dollars, into a pot to be determined by the simple flipping of a coin.
I’m resigned to my fate before the cards come up. Hoping for an instant death, I’m surprised as the 2
is the first bullet out of the barrel. Trying to remain calm, but staring at the dealer as if my life is in her hands, I see the burn card as she puts it into the muck. The 9
. Phew. She flips the river. It’s red. 7
. Stacks upon stacks of chips are pushed my way as I stare blankly in awe. I don’t celebrate; I don’t even think I moved. I rack up my 3k in chips a few rounds later, heart still pounding, pledging to avoid those kind of life changing coin flips for a little while.
Yet come Saturday morning I was back. I’m relieved to find the 2/5NL game running. I sit down in the 1 seat next to a very talkative mid-aged gentleman. Without even saying hello, he dives right into conversation. “You know it’s funny, when you’re trying to find one, they want nothing to do with you, but when you just sit back and say I really don’t give a ****, that’s when the women come in flocks. Took me 5 years to realize that after my divorce.” It’s as if he knows before even meeting me that the only woman who will be calling me their Valentine this year is my mom. Am I that easy to read? Hours pass. He does a lot of chatting; I do a lot of nodding.
I can’t get anything going. With a $700 stack I get involved with the 10 seat, an aggressive player with a big stack. He makes it 20 pre flop and I call on the BTN with 8
9
. Flop comes 3
4
8
and he leads for 45. I peel one off. The turn is a K
and again he leads big, this time for 100. At this point I think he’s beating me, but not that confidant in his hand, or else he’d be betting smaller to keep me in. I raise to 270. He thinks and shoves in for my final 400. F***. He tells me save my money, unless I’ve got a straight. I sheepishly fold and he proudly flips over his 78.
I reload to $1,000 and hours later get involved with an older gentleman who has raised for the first time in 6 hours. Obviously huge hand. I call 20 bucks in the SB with 6
7
. Flop comes K
8
9
and I lead for 40 trying to build a pot. He makes in 150. At this point I’m confidant he has AK or AA. Not wanting to hit one of my 5,678,943 outs and not get paid off I raise to 400 and he immediately shoves. So much for fold equity. I call. It’s a $1600 pot. He’s got 88. Turn is the 4
. Whiff number one. The river pairs the 9 and all of a sudden I’m on the losing end of a monster coin flip.
Down 1200 for the day, I stare up at the TV in amazement. NASCAR’s on. The dumbest sport in America. A bunch of guys driving around for hours on end, only to finish up exactly where they started. That sounds all too familiar. My post Vegas poker game is starting to resemble one big NASCAR race. Hundreds and hundreds of circles, minimal progress.
The 45 minute drive home from the boat supplies plenty of time for thought and reflection. I like to play feel good music after a loss. Bob Marley or the Beach Boys. Today it’s the Zac Brown Band. With lyrics about the simple things in life like chicken fried, pecan pie, and cold beer, it helps ease my mind. Poker, as in life, is filled with “break-even stretches”. Times when it feels like you can’t take a step forward that isn’t followed by a step backwards. I’m starting to realize the importance of enjoying the ride, and refraining from sweating the ups and downs. After all, sometimes you’ll end up right where you began with nothing but the journey to look back on.
Miami Matt